It’s official. I’ve been gaining weight. Not just gaining weight, but my body shape has been changing. There can be a lot of reasons for this but I’m sure that getting older and the fact that I’m going to be 38 this year might have something to do with this.
I’m trying to figure out what I should do about it. I know what everyone says: “You’re not fat, shut up, get out of there, etc etc”. While me saying I’m fat might be an insult to obese people, the reality is, I can feel and see my own body changing. While I haven’t gained that much weight, I can see the contrast when I look at myself in the mirror: my face seems rounder and different. My clothes also don’t fit the same way either – my waist has expanded and some skirts now almost cut me in half, not to mention the arm fat, that mean that some sleeves now feel all too snug, when they don’t stop fitting at all.
I have been trying to decide what to think of this. Should I try to lose weight? I don’t think I eat a lot more than I used to, maybe my metabolism slowed down a bit. To lose weight I’d have to do a lot more exercise, which I have tried to, but can’t. I hate gyms and there is no such thing as an exercise routine for me. I just hate it and find it extremely boring, what can I do? I can change the way I eat and that might be the best course of action. I won’t embark on crazy diets because to be honest, I’m not one to starve myself – it’s uncomfortable, I need to be able to focus on work and not how hungry I am and also, diets never work as they’re not sustainable in the long run.
I should keep an eye on my weight though, as it’s easy for it to go out of control. I don’t want to not recognise myself in the mirror and be able to still wear the majority of the clothes I currently own as the reality is, I can’t really afford a new wardrobe!
I suppose it’s all a matter of finding a balance, as with anything else. I think that it’s a good idea to pay attention to what is happening, but try and avoid becoming too obsessed with it. This is easier said than done, especially with all the assaults on body image we all suffer constantly – the latest of which, the Beach Body campaign that invaded the London Tube, gaining a lot of criticism.
As one ages the body changes. It’s the hard reality that is difficult to deal with and accept, particularly in a world that constantly sends us messages about how inadequate we are – because of our body shape, our age, etc. I have decided to accept it and to hell with expectations.
PS: the scale you see in the picture is the Weight Master II by Ozeri. It’s a fully programmable bathroom scale that allow you to record up to 8 different profiles. The weight loss detector allows you to easily know if you’ve gained or lost weight since the last time you stepped on it. It also gives you information on BMI, so you can know if your weight is still healthy. The scales were a gift, words and opinions my own.